Wandering Through Nothingness

A Little Something from Molly Barker

Leigh Cooper Wallace

on December 17, 2012

My friend and heroe, Leigh Cooper Wallace died Monday morning due to complications with pneumonia.  She was only 43 years old.  Leigh was a hero to many.  A runner, a coach, a powerhouse of a spirit, she inspired so many to reach within and tap into their greatest potential.  When I first met Leigh, she was bringing Girls on the Run back to her hometown.  Her strength, story and energy inspired me so deeply, I felt compelled to write about her…to share THAT KIND OF STRENGTH with the world.  Endurance Magazine ran the piece (thank you Joe Nuss).

In honor of her I am re-posting that story.  The world needs to know that women like Leigh live here…touch us…change us…show us what is good, right and real.  Leigh, I will miss you.  My prayers go to your family, your children, those you coach and your community.  We are all better for having known you.  My heart breaks today, but is stronger becaue of you.

I Am Woman

I am a woman, I am a runner. Much of my experience being a woman has overlapped with the power I get from being a runner. When I run I feel beautiful, powerful, and real. The pieces of myself that I share throughout the day are all assimilated back into one beautiful tapestry . . . one amazing piece of reality . . . one experience that is mine and mine alone. The physicality of it provides me with a powerful reminder that my body is capable, strong, powerful, and MINE. Every time I run, I make a statement to the world, “I own my action, my body, my thoughts, and my experiences. I am not an object to be sexualized, diminished, or dominated. I am real. I am human. I am spirit manifest within this strong, healthy, and beautiful physical body. Honor that which rests within me.”

And this is where Leigh’s story hits me.

Leigh Wallace

Leigh is a new Girls on the Run council director. I had the privilege of meeting her at one of our recent Girls on the Run trainings in Charlotte, NC.

Over the course of two days, women from across the nation descend on Charlotte for a two-day, very intense Girls on the Run training. Participants take back tangible tools and systems to efficiently deliver the Girls on the Run program. What remains with me are their stories. Frequently wrapped into and around a woman’s story are her struggles in battling our culture’s obsession with bodies, sexuality, and power.

I’ve got to be honest with you, when I met Leigh I was intimidated by her. Her physical strength is obvious. She is one of the strongest-looking females I’ve ever met. Her energy, though, was a bit reserved. She was probably intimidated by my extroversion and wide-open persona. We had a kind of mutual intimidation society, if you will: me of her physical presence and she, of my emotional one.

After a day together, Leigh e-mailed me her story.

As a little girl, Leigh was tough. In her words, “I was the athletic girl in my grade and this made me popular with the boys. I knew that they respected my athletic ability and my power and I really liked that. I didn’t feel pretty, but I guess I probably thought I was cute in a way. I didn’t see myself as a tomboy but I did relate well to boys and worked very hard to prove to them that even though I was a girl, I could still do most of what they could do.”

But something happened around middle school. Like many girls, Leigh stepped into the Girl Box, a place girls often go around sixth grade with heartbreaking results. At this vulnerable age, the formerly vibrant and strong Leigh began to morph into a girl overly occupied by her appearance. First it showed up as restricting her food intake, then it appeared as overindulgence. There seemed to be no end to the madness, yet running was the one safe space in the day where Leigh felt some degree of control. She won championship races in ninth and tenth grade and got third her senior year in the Kansas State Championships.

Appalachian State came knocking at her door. The move to Boone brought with it an opportunity to buckle down, focus on her love for running, and get on track with her eating. With a renewed sense of self and a desire for comfort in her skin, Leigh appeared on the ASU campus.

But changing locations didn’t prove to be the remedy she had hoped. With her continued obsession with weight, Leigh was sidelined by stress fractures and distracted by her roller-coaster relationship with the scales. Her first year at ASU certainly didn’t shake out to be what she had hoped.

And then IT happened.

September 29, 1989, Leigh set out on an early evening run. Planning to be back by 6:30, she and her boyfriend (now husband) would then go out for a nice dinner together.

A light rain began to fall when the car slowly approached. A very scary man sat at the wheel. “Get in,” he demanded, pointing to the passenger seat with his gun. Not knowing what to do, Leigh agreed.

What occurred over the next several hours is unthinkable. He drove Leigh to a remote area outside of Boone. With a frightening and disturbing sense of calm and coolness, he raped her while psychologically tormenting her with threats of death. At first, before the numbness set in, all she could think about was how loved she was. “My mother will miss me when I die,” she thought. A strange sense of gratitude seemed to float down upon her shoulders, as the violence raged around her . . . an overwhelming and gentle gratitude for her body, her friends, her family, and her life.

Hour after hour, the torment continued. Somewhere over the course of that time frame, Daniel Lee shared with her that he had murdered another girl, Jeni Gray. He calmly described her slow, cruel, and painful death and threatened to do the same to Leigh.

Leigh managed to escape from Daniel Lee hours later at a gas station. At the trial, as Leigh testified, she intentionally stared her tormenter in the eyes, her proof to him and herself that she wasn’t weaker because of this experience but was much stronger. Daniel Lee received the death penalty for murdering Jeni Gray. He died in prison, several years later, from a brain aneurysm.

After the kidnapping, Leigh was stronger, indeed. She went on to become a 2-time Southern Conference All-Conference performer in cross-country. In track she was named the Southern Conference Most Outstanding Performer. Upon graduation, she continued to train on her own and compete. She won several state and regional races and ran her 5K PR of 16:56. She teaches and coaches at the high school level, leading many athletes to victory in the state championships. Now, Leigh is prepared to engage third, fourth, and fifth graders in the Girls on the Run program.

She is married with two children, wanting first and foremost to be remembered as a remarkable mother, not an elite runner. She is loved, respected, and embraced by her family, her community and at last, herself.

I share this with you because it’s important that our culture honors women like Leigh-that we eliminate our antiquated ideals of beauty and recreate them to include the stories of women who are strong, brave, and authentic. As I read the story that she so openly shared with me, I wept, my head in my hands and my heart in my throat, wondering how I could possibly honor someone as brave, courageous, and bold as she. And as I write to you, I recognize that no words could ever do justice to the pain of her experience, nor the power she has gained from it. But what I can offer comes from Leigh herself.

“I don’t know . . . I guess I just love to inspire people. I love to see that light go on when someone realizes that being strong is one of the greatest feelings in the world . . . and to know that running makes you just as strong mentally as it does physically! To know that no matter what life’s circumstances are and no matter how hard the world may seem to be trying to hold you back, that our own personal strength and belief in ourselves is something that no one can take away without our permission. I believe this more than I believe anything and am committed to helping others believe it too.”

Leigh is, without a doubt, strength, beauty, and woman personified.

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Molly Barker, M.S.W., is the Founder and Vision Keeper of Girls on the Run International and the author of “Girls Lit from Within: A Guide to Life Outside of the Girl Box.” Learn more about Girls on the Run at http://www.girlsontherun.org.


18 responses to “Leigh Cooper Wallace

  1. Renee Ross Battle says:

    It is a small world…my past and present, mutual friends. Molly do you remember me from your childhood? I am Renee Ross Battle. I live in Boone and Leigh and her family were some of the first people we met when moving to Boone. My eldest son played sports with Jake and both my boys had Leigh’s mom as a teacher. I work in the school system and we all have heavy hearts with the loss of Leigh. I have seen the positive effects Girls on the Run has had in our community. Thanks for sharing.

  2. Victoria says:

    How sad! I just, this minute, finished watching a show on ID channel where Leigh spoke about her abduction, at the end of the show a message came up saying she had passed away last month. My heart dropped, what a loss:(

  3. Lori D says:

    Just saw Leigh’s story on 20/20 rerun…. at the end it stated her passing. Upon searching her name, I came across this. thank you for sharing this inspiring story about such a beautiful person. I wish peace to her family.

  4. Felice says:

    Wonderful Story i am so inspired, Leigh was an inspiration for us all!!

  5. valady9 says:

    I just saw the story on Sins and Secrets. Leigh was beautiful and strong! I was so shocked to see about her passing away at the end of the story! so sad. I am inspired by her life may she rest in peace.

  6. Erin says:

    I just saw Leigh’s story on ID. She makes me want to start running again. What an amazing woman.

  7. carol mclure says:

    I just finished watching the program about her abduction. After seeing she had passed I had to learn more about this amazing person. Thanks so much for this story, her family has so much to be proud of. Prayers to them all. Wish I could have known her.

  8. Kathy says:

    Leigh Cooper’s story was just on Discovery I.D. and then I read that she had passed away. I am just shocked. RIP Leigh. You are so very respected.

  9. Diana Morgan says:

    I also saw the program about her abduction and escape, in which she was interviewed about her ordeal. What a remarkable young woman she was – and what a loss for her to die so young

  10. Kathy Gellner says:

    I saw Leigh’s story on I.D., and at the end I caught a brief notation about her passing. I was scrolling through channels at this point, and I didn’t catch it all. How very sad that such a strong vibrant woman’s life was cut short at such a young age! My heart goes out to her family and friends.

  11. Elaine Pietrucha says:

    Hello, you did your friend justice. What a beautiful person Leigh was inside and out! I too watched her episode on ID channel. I was moved by her story of survival as well. I just was wondering and I would like your take on this….How is it that in today’s modern medical world did Leigh as a 43 year old very fit woman die so suddenly from pneumonia complications? Is there any investigation regarding the odd, sudden circumstances of her death? Just wondered. Very sad early ending for Leigh. Thank You

  12. Donna Swaby says:

    I just watched a show about the Jeni Gray death and Leigh Cooper’s abduction and rape. I was just so impressed by her resilience to survive. Then at the end a screen came up saying she had passed away from pneumonia complications in 2012. I was just heartbroken…..RIP Leigh Cooper Wallace. You touched many lives directly and indirectly….

    • Haleigh says:

      I am Leigh’s daughter, and every now and then I like to read these comments. Thank you so much, comments like these are what keep my strong. They are a constant reminder of how amazing my mom was, and how many people she continues to inspire even after she passed. Thank you Donna.

  13. AMBER A says:

    I too saw the story on ID discovery on my day off. I was so inspired by her strength and spirit. I was sick to see the end where it stated she had passed away. I sent a message to her husband on facebook of condolence to the family. I felt I had to reach out to him, that is how much I was moved by the sheer wonderfulness of this woman. I have joined a gym and this is a direct inspiration from the fact that though Leigh was a busy wife mother and teacher, she made time for taking care of herself also. Lets all try to loves others and ourselves a little more.

  14. Jenne says:

    I too saw the ID program and was shocked and saddened to learn of Leigh’s passing. She truly is a hero. What a strong woman. She is truly an inspiration to women everywhere but especially to those of us who have suffered similar circumstances. God bless her family.

  15. Brandi McGriff Adams says:

    Leigh was a tremendous inspiration to go thru what she did and to persevere the way she did is utterly amazing. So sorry for the loss of such a beautiful vibrant woman. Condolences to her family. Much love!

  16. Maria Anglade says:

    Haleigh, I remember the shoes (Van’s) she got you for Xmas that were in the closet. I don’t know but I think she wants you to know how much she loves you and misses you. Take care. I went to high school w/ Leigh and we ran cross country. We also did swim team together in Ft. Buchanan, Puerto Rico. Take care, Maria

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